Concepts of God: What are Yours?

I came across Sreejit’s blog whilst searching for Amma online and loved it so much that it inspired me to take the plunge and venture into the blogging world… The jury is out about how I feel sending my thoughts and feelings out to the yonder (they have a hard enough time swimming in my head!), but, reading the Dungeon Prompts, I feel like a little kid desperately wanting to join in a fun game, so here we go!

Concepts of God: What are Yours?

In 2005, my dad had a massive stroke following a trip to the Chiropractor, which left him paralysed and brain damaged, but fortunately still alive.

Thanks to the phenomenom of neuroplasticity, the area of his brain responsible for ‘dad jokes’ seemed to thrive, but a massive amount of damage was done to the right side of his brain, since the clot came from a rupture of his carotid artery, and consequently the left half of his body was almost completely paralysed.

As common with a brain injury, my family entered a whole new world of depression and colourful verbal profanities…. And worse ‘dad jokes.’

It had been a pretty intense time, particularly because my Dad’s identity, and my Mum’s for that matter, was totally defined by his engagement in sport and doing whacky physical things like running marathons. He was known as the strong, reliable, polite, hard working and healthy man.

In an instant, everything changed.

There was a lot of pressure and stress in the air and, being the responsible daughter that I am, I took off to Asia towards the end of his six months or so in a neurological rehabilitation hospital.

A few kind of cool spiritual things happened in this period of time, often whilst I simultaneously witnessed some horrible things.

In the weeks before writing what’s written below, I’d had a bad experience volunteering at an orphanage and quit my volunteer role, I saw a person die on the roads and I had frantically argued with a fellow hotel guest in Phnom Penh who was taking a tiny three year old girl, dressed up in a pretty pink party dress, off the streets and into his hotel room.

After futile attempts to do something, I went to Angkor Wat in Cambodia and I did nothing.

The old temples and their overgrown foliage generously gave me respite from my angry and frustrated response to the suffering that seemed to be so abundant in the world.

This was written after being driven out of those temples at sunset in the back of a tuk tuk, seeing the beauty of everything that was struck by the sun’s warm glow. I think it describes my concept of God.


Photo: G. Allison
Photo: G. Allison

21st Nov 2005

Seeing God is like looking at a sunset.

The beauty comes not from looking at the sun itself, but from looking at the things that the light touches.

In fact, our eyes can’t look at the sun directly. It hurts and we are blinded by doing so.

But the beauty that transpires when a beam of sunshine hits a tree, a face or a cloud as dusk crawls through the sky is amazing.

We see the sun set everyday. We look to the sky as evening approaches.

At different times and places it is more beautiful than others, but there is always a beauty there if you take the time to look for it, even when the sun is hidden by dark rain clouds.

We see God in everything that this light touches.

We see God when we let this light be the love we share with another person, animal, plant or tree.

We see the wonder of it when we project love onto others and in return- see God within ourselves, as we are all really one.

It sounds very lovey-dovey, but it is so true.

There is that space for us to jump across that allows us to see incredible beauty and experience a tremendous peace.

Taking the leap is the hard bit.

After that- if you do it properly- it all becomes so clear and so easy.

You learn when you are ready. You see what you are prepared to see.

To do more than this may scold your soul like the sun scolds your eyes if you don’t focus on the beauty it inspires around and within you… if you are continuously missing the real beauty of a sunset by only trying to look directly at the sun.

Photo: alidarbac on
Photo: alidarbac on



16 thoughts on “Concepts of God: What are Yours?

  1. Wow, awesome post. I really like the way you described God. I had never thought about it that way, but it makes a lot of sense. Very beautiful piece. And thanks so much for being a part of Dungeon Prompts! So glad to have you.

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  2. This is absolutely beautiful. I’m crying after reading it. Crying because it is so beautiful and profound. And amazing that you were able to write it soon after witnessing such horrendous things. I am very touched by your offering to the prompt.

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    1. Thanks Karuna, that is so beautiful to see that you were touched. I was really moved to read your comment. Surprised too… I didn’t expect that it would touch a reader like that. It has made me reflect on how powerful it can be to open up and share with others, which is not my natural tendency, so thank you.

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    1. Thanks Sindy, it is inspirational to read that you have had such a great experience with blogging. I feel like I’ve just discovered a secret garden filled with all of these amazing people! Looking forward to reading more of your posts in the future 🙂

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      1. The people I have met here are amazing, deep and interesting. I have made real friends that have been so supportive. Additionally what blogging has done for my writing, as I do so much of it, has really improved. I feel I write with a more confident voice now.

        So welcome and enjoy your Word Press experience.

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  3. Your post touched me profoundly. I love how you describe God, it makes total sense to me; I am sorry about your father, I can only imagine how tragic this huge change has been for everyone, especially your father. You are most generous to have shared with us…I find blogging very cathartic and therapeutic since last year. Blessings, Oliana


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